I know this road well.
I'm sorry.
I've worked hard to get off benzos over the years; I found myself with a new script recently, as well. Circumstances, however, steered me to take it. Trying to keep myself out of the benzo head space that takes over. You know the one where we are convinced that all of our problems are solved with the benzo. It's a nice place to be, that's for sure. Benzos were made for people like us, and also noting that because nothing goes right, ever, benzos go sour for us real quick as well.
I hope you feel better.