My situation is that the growth they removed was cancer, and that some cells had travelled to some lymph glands. 3 of the 38 glands they removed had cancer cells. I was told there was no other cancerous growths in me, based on the 2 CT scans I've had. I'm hoping they didn't miss my stomach because I've had pain there too.

They are offering me chemo when I recover fully from my surgery, though it won't be chemo that will make me lose my hair. But I will apparently become infertile.

I need to get checked every 2-3 months for the next 2 years, and then constantly for the next 10-15 years to make sure the chemo worked and the cancer doesn't come back.

I am having a hard time processing this and have had a huge amount of anxiety trying to find information or help online as it makes the situation feel more real to me.

I just want to get on with my life without having to constantly go through tests and wonder if each time is going to be the time I find out it has come back.