My mind keeps racing and racing, I'll think positive about something and think I got everything down. Than I'll over analyze things all over again once I noticed something else. Sometimes I have to listen to music and zone out so I can clear my mind from everything else.

I call it mixed up thoughts. Nothing seems to make sense to anyone else, but it makes perfect sense to me. Than once I try to explain it, nothing makes sense and I'll realize I'll have to go over everything again.

Sometimes I wish my brain would take a vacation and chill out. I used to be on benzo's but I hated the side effects. So now I meditate and exercise daily. I'm trying to be positive about things and I am positive but than my moods will change and that's when I start thinking and thinking.

This isn't what's going on now but sometimes it happens anytime I get into relationships because I've been cheated on multiple times. I always seem to stick by and support them but a lot of them take me for granted and than I'll end up finding out their leaving me for somebody else. When I ask if it has something to do with my mood swings, they simply say no. Once I saw the girl they've broken up with me for and the girl is drop dead gorgeous and I start feeling horrible inside. It's as if they leave me the minute something better comes along. Now I'm on better medication thankfully but sometimes my past still upsets me when I'm having one of those low moments.

Just wanted to share my thoughts and see if anyone else relates with me or has been in the same situation when it came to relationships.