I suffer from really bad anxiety and depression. Earlier this summer I became suicidal and had to spend two months in treatment and go on meds. Because of my issues I've never been able to enter into a relationship, a fact that's always bothered me. Earlier this week, I was feeling really good and ready to be ok with being alone for the time being. Flashforward three days and I'm back being lonely with stress of looking for work only compounding those feelings. Whenever I feel ready to move forward, it never lasts