I don't know what section of the forum it goes into but I just want to rant. I have been trying my best at my job and at volunteering. When I come home, I get thoughts of I shouldn't be here because I'm useless. I have bad anixety and I feel numb and can't really laugh. Some people have noticed, especially my mum that I'm cold. I worry about whether I'll have a boyfriend, children, a decent home. I tell myself if I can't do anything right then what's the point of me being here? I'm not sucidal and I love life and feel happy on my own. I've done quite well on the till at volunteering. I work at a cancer research shop. I can't socalise well and I try to laugh but I just can't. Sometimes it's not funny to me or I just feel numb. I'm worried I'm losing my emotions. I hear voices often but when I'm stressed and other times. I'm sorry if I can't talk, my brain freezes. I don't know what to say. I can't feel much. I can feel happiness, sadness, contentment but i feel numb sometimes.