I am unsure how to proceed, because if I tell care coordinator about this she will probably take the side of the psychiatrist and care coordinator will see I'm upset about it, feed back to mental health team and refuse to give me copies of my mental health notes and future letters to GP and future notes. They will deny me copies of my mental health notes on the basis it would cause me harm reading them??

If I address with psychiatrist at appointment, I'm not sure if I'll be fuming at her for undermining my experience which will lead her to stop sending me copies of her letters and access to my mental health notes.

So the way I see it is, wait for my copies of mental health notes to arrive then write a letter to psychiatrist asking what led her to write "feels" transsexual manipulated controlled harassed me? Write to her and say she's invalidated / undermined my experience of abuse, ask her what she's going to do about it?Say I want this changed, appropriate action taken, ask her to write to GP doctor that it's not a case of "feels" that manipulation abuse harrassment actually took place. What else can I do? It's going to be really really difficult not to divulge how I'm feeling in meantime about psychiatrist to care coordinator and psychiatrist letter says she's seeing me in November and I think I want to refuse the appointment until I get all my notes that I've requested from 2011 to present date but the care coordinator is going to ask why? And then I'm going to have to tell her the truth about what I think about psychiatrist because if I don't then care coordinator is going to think I'm being difficult rearranging appointments unnecessarily. Don't know what to do because I don't want them to remove my right to access to copies of my notes, letters etc