I was feeling ok yesterday then working my part time job I started to break down. I felt pathetic. I’m working a kids job on top of my regular job. I mak good money but feel like it’s not enough.

Then I started to feel real crappy. Kids moving on to their dreams. In my regular job same thing. I use to be one of those kids. With a dream and it was stripped of it. I am feeling like a failure. I kinda felt what’s the point. How do I rediscover myself. I look like crap and feel like crap. I don’t even want to be here. I want to retreat to my house and cry.

Part of me last night wanted to end it. All the skill I learned, all the progress in iop out the window. I’m still feeling shi tty. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just a lost day. I hope not a lost cause but feels like it.