This is week 3 on the patch. I already bought a pack and smoked it, then went back on the patch. Then this morning took my dog out to go potty, and someone dropped a cigarette that hadn't been smoked off of at all. Sounds gross, but I smoked it. So two relapses. I don't plan on buying cigarettes, but when my moods change so much or I feel depressed, I want cigarettes. When I feel anxious, I want cigarettes. And when I feel so tired from bipolar and from quitting, I want a cigarette. Ugh, this sucks. But I already got this far, and with the money from cigarettes, I bought yummy food and went to a used book store, got 10 books. If only people in my town would not smoke or vape in front of me. Then I would feel better. And people wouldn't drop a full cigarette with my name written on it. Everybody, can't you see I'm trying to quit. Bipolar disorder, can't you see I'm trying to quit??