Thanks Scorpiosis. Well I refer to her as the transsexual because I didn't want to say names so from now I'll refer to her as J. Well J admitted she had surgery down there is taking hormone therapy and I emailed care coordinator saying there was Men don't look. Then days later showed me birth certificate which shows born a girl all attempts to conceal her transsexual identity from me.

I have raged and raged and raged over the mind control games J put me through all of her manipulative behaviour via email to care coordinator saying exactly what I think of her J completely utterly insulting her body referring to her disgusting gross physical appearance, dehumanising degrading fowl insulting words. Frequently raging to my care coordinator at what J put me through. So yesterday I emailed care coordinator to put her straight that I did not emotionally abuse J and didn't feel the need to, all I needed to do was get rid, walk away. Care coordinator is aware of my murderous thoughts towards J due to her harrassment and stalking and that I will not act upon my thoughts due to immense emotional upset over what J was doing to me. Other people have told me what J was doing is emotional blackmail and what J was saying to me was manipulative, attempts to stop me leaving. I have told the care coordinator I have severe hatred towards J and the hateful words I have used in emails to my care coordinator confirm that. Thanks everyone for putting perspective on things. Well the mental health notes will take up to 40 days to process and according to Psychiatrist letter she wants to see me in November by which time I might not have my notes. Someone advised me today just go to psychiatrist appointment and pretend you get along with her. And she's right because if I tell care coordinator I want later appointment she's going to ask why, and I'm going to appear difficult if I don't explain why I want to delay psychiatrist appointment. So after I get my notes I will write to psychiatrist and say you have invalidated my experience of emotional abuse and harrassment from J. I feel undermined. Can you change or make a note of my disagreement on "feels harassed" or do I need to contact administration to have a note saying I disagree? I might well have to print emails I sent to care coordinator as evidence that emotional abuse manipulation control did happen and even print the harassing emails letters I received and state the police took action and gave verbal warning over Js harrassment. I don't think it's necessary to give crime reference number because that just encourages psychiatrist to contact police and further undermine invalidate distort my sense of reality. Thank you for your help everyone. Admittedly I have been raging about Js emotional abuse to everyone I've been in contact with.... generally most of them understand what J put me through they understand my murderous thoughts. I still do not completely understand why the psychiatrist would invalidate undermine me like this. She is not supporting me. She is protecting J despite Js ill treatment towards me over an 11 month period