i am at 30 days today... my hardest time is usually at about 7-8 weeks(i haven't made the 9 week mark in a very long time) and then for 2 weeks after my last episode... i was trying to break a really bad cycle when i first posted here... and the only reason i stopped was the reaction of my t... i go back on tuesday after not seeing him since before christmas... i really wanted to talk to him about how breaks in t and all my here and now issues... cause me to loose ground... and ask him what he can do to help me with that... but, now things have really built up and there is so much... and when that happens i get all tangled up...and right now i feel really tangled... this post is as tangled as my brain right now...like one of those puzzles you have to untangle... lyn