My husband was upset I didn’t warn him that I was suicidal. I know better than to keep that from him. He said he’d be more worried if I did succeed. He said pdoc was distracted and through him for a loop too. It’s hard to put things on paper because then it’s real but I’ll have to do something. I no longer have the luxury of screwing up for 6 hours in between appointments to get the whole picture. I was to embarrassed to tell him about the psychosis and it wasn’t in my notes because I didn’t tell T either. I wish I didn’t have to talk to get my meds