I go through times in my life now even with everything going fairly well that I just need to take a break & only do the things I absolutely have to & even those things I procrastinate on at times.

Lonely isn't ALL BAD. it's during those times when it is easier for us to gather our thoughts & feelings together & gain a better self understanding. I thought for awhile if I ever let myself get back there I would never get out again but found once I recooperated from an overload I got back to doing what I was normally interested in. A few things I kept pushing myself to do during those times but mostly just needed space & hibernation time.....& IT'S OK!!!!

I would go ahead & push your T to help you work on the things you know you need. You are the one paying your T to give you the help you need. Oh my, I truly miss my awesome T who I haven't seen since the end of June. She left where I was seeing her & opened private practice. I just need to email her to get started up again but was trying to get bills paid down before accruing more expenses.

Your good points are important to keep in mind...good friends, good mental health support & independence.......wonderful things happening in your life!!!

Just remember on #3 it's not living a Christian life that heals but it is our RELATIONSHIP with God that is healing.....if you ever feel like talking more about this I'm only a PM away. I understand what you are saying & was in a similar place 10 years ago