I have bipolar and know that a loss of interest in all activities can be a symptom of depression. But what about the other spectrum? I'm restless and can't seem to settle on anything that would interest me. No book, no TV show, no hobby, there's absolutely NOTHING I feel like doing right now. I just have this strange inner restlessness that I've never noticed before. Could this be a symptom of the onset of mania? I've felt some other things too but haven't really kept track of them. If I'm going into mania, I'm doomed. There is nothing I can take for it that won't cause tardive dyskinesia (been there done that, thank you very much) or make me fat. I don't want to be this way mentally. But I've lost 78 pounds in the last year and I am NOT gaining it back. The extra weight made my deep depression so much worse. I do not want to go back there.
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