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I hear your frustration, your anger, and your confusion in your post. I'm so sorry that you are going through such a difficult time! Are you seeing, or would you consider seeing a therapist? I think maybe this would really help you sort out your difficulties. It does take time, but it is well worth it.

You sound like a really wonderful person to me. I wanted to take the time to comment on a few things you said to show you that I do care, that I did listen.

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Nobody ever says I'm a nice guy or I'm their close friend.

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I wish that you truly had the confidence, the self-acceptance that you deserve. It sounds like you are looking for a sense of self-esteem from others rather than from within. I'm not being judgemental, I also struggle with this problem.

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I've realized that I can't function socially. I use a few superficial things that worked out for me, I use them to advance myself, to get by in a world where social acceptance seems so necessary.

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You are very courageous and insightful! This is where I really think a therapist could help, help you figure out how to move forward and achieve your goal.

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It seems that nothing will ever work out. . . I"ve realized I'll never have what I want. . . she's the one girl I'll never have. . .People don't care about me. . .I'll never have her. I can't be happy. . .No one accepts me,

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This is what is called black and white thinking, all or nothing. This can and will frustrate you because things in life don't usually come in polar opposites. You CAN have what you want. There ARE people who caer about you. Even if you never have her, you CAN still be happy (I know it doesn't feel that way), I accept you. And I hope I'm somebody

Are the things in which you long for inaccessible? Or are the inaccessible things the ones in which you long for?

You will find peace. Take care of yourself.