i feel like this sometimes. i think in the past i would have drank and smoked to get past that feeling, but i don't do that anymore so sometimes i'm just sitting around and i think i should watch a show or something but i turn it on and i'm just not interested at all in any of it, nor books, nor anything. i wonder if that feeling is just the sort-of leveled off emptiness that my meds give me that once would have been filled up with some kind of an episode that i'd subsequently obliterate and obfuscate with booze, drugs, and nicotine.