No... unfortunately I can't say as I've had any good experiences with therapists. The few I have seen for brief periods over the years ranged from mediocre to dreadful! I haven't seen one for several years now. And I doubt I ever will again.

It is true that I also am a very private person. So perhaps that is part of the reason I never hit it off with therapists. I grew up in a family where you just didn't wash your dirty laundry in public, as it was often put. But also, for me, some of the stuff I'd have to talk about, were I to ever really open up, would be beyond humiliating. I can't imagine under what circumstances I could ever feel comfortable doing it. Anyway... I'm old now. So what would be the point? From my perspective, mental health services are for young people. Past the age of fifty (maybe earlier?) one simply becomes excess baggage on the mental health railroad, so to speak.

I don't know what healing means to me. I suppose this is at least in part due to the fact that I don't have a clue how I went off the rails to begin with. I suppose healing would have something to do with feeling comfortable with who I am. Unfortunately, at this late stage of my life, that will simply never happen... too much water under the bridge, so to speak.