Hii Fuzzybear, I have the same symptoms. It does come from CEN, I have been reading about it just recently. II also bottle things up and in fact I isolate most of the time. I get triggered by people's reactions to me. It brings me back to my FOO and their abuses. Healing to me would mean being able to go out and be in the world without being triggered. If I could say I don't care how they act toward me and just enjoy myself. But, my reactions are so ingrained in me, I don't know. I had a therapist in the neighborhood where I use to live who was trying to draw out emotions in me. She even tried to make me angry on purpose. It didn't work though. I realized it and said are you trying to make me angry, she said yes. I didn't feel angry or anything, just knew what she was doing. My point is, if I were more healed, I would have felt my feelings naturally instead of stuffing them. I am looking for "penpals" so if you like to, write me back and we can "talk" about it.