It was soooooo long ago. Hmmm, I was talked into it, but at the time I was diagnosed with PTSD and MMD so what they put me on was an AD which sent me into a mixed state. Even after the change to BP they kept adding ADs to the mix resulting in mixed episodes so for a long while I was anti meds. When I sought help again I insisted on no ADs and the pdoc I talked to was shocked at the idea that the past Pdocs had insisted on ADs, evidently psychology had come to the conclusion that BP. And AD should rarely be mixed. I'd love to hit some of those early days pdoc upside the head for trying to tell me my reactions to AD was all in my head.