I need to someone who hurt me how I have accepted that she may not respond. I have accepted that I may not get answer. I have realized with the help of other forms that I have no control how she responds.

It's sounds complicated but I was hurt by her actions. I love her and hate her at the same time, but in order to move on need to talk to her. Someone on another forum is insisting that i talk her.

I have built a fantasy image of this person both good and bad.

However, I don't this person that well and she probably has no idea how I feel. I'm not sure if she's gay. I can't assume her identity either way.

I want to talk to her but I can't find the words. Also I don't feel comfortable telling her my feelings trough her work email. I have personal email. I obtained it through spokeo.

I need to tell how I feel but I can't find the words.
So where do I start?

I'm kind of i this 12 step program and it's damned if I do tell this woman how i feel and damned I don't.

I'm choosing to tell her but just can't find the words