Yeah, I do. Sometimes it's more intense than others. Back in 2015 it was bad enough that I stopped taking my meds because I was somewhat delusional and thought I was gonna go help people in Rojava, so naturally I had to learn to live without them because I wouldn't have access to them over there. More recently, I think I'm just coming out of far less intense mixed state where I was back and forth between physical symptoms of depression (with very few depressive thoughts) and more energized days. I've never experienced a cycle where everything was primarily physical as opposed to the mix of physical and mental... to be fair though, I'm not even entirely sure it was a legitimate cycle. I barely recognize (euphoric) mania when I'm not on meds so, naturally, when I am being a good boy and taking my meds and I experience "symptoms" (be they physical, mental, major or minor) it's just not likely that I'll recognize them until after they go away and I have time to reflect and think, "oh, okay, so that must be what happened."
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Bipolar I; ADD
Abilify 10mg
Escitalopram 20mg
Amphetamine Salts 30mg / day
Zolpidem 5 - 10mg prn for zzz
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