I’m semi calmer today. I woke up jazzed but I put my energy into cleaning. I’ve cleaned the dining room, the living room, and my car. Like deep cleaned. I feel calmer now. I’m afraid the more I sit the more it will build up. I can feel it in my chest. I’m not sure if my mind is racing or not because I’m listening to music. Loudly. It’s keeping me calm. But I’m not euphoric. In fact I kinda feel like crying. I feel uncomfortable, like I have to keep moving or I’ll freak the **** out. I have to sit still for homework.

At least I’m going out later today. Hopefully that will distract me. Being with people calms me down.