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Originally Posted by Só leigheas
My mom and I are fine. Our relationship has pretty much been repaired.
What brought all this on was a number of things. I lost my cat, that hurt. My mom almost died, but she's good now and out of the hospital. A childhood friend of mine took his life, that's made it difficult to even sleep. And then I had to deal with another lecture about me not contributing, it's accurate but I can't seem to solve the problem. To add to it all, nothing I do seems to please anyone. They always expect more and/or better. What can I say, I'm useless. Finally, my fiance and I have been fighting, it takes two but I wish we could just figure this crap out and be happy.
I know you all care here and it does mean a lot. I just wish it changed anything. I'm not saying that to offend. I'm just saying that no matter what my head just drowns everything and everyone else out. I'm so damn tired. I just want to be done.
shezbut, thanks for the number. I don't think I need to talk to anyone about that subject at the moment. With my T, I see him on Wednesday. I don't know if I'll bring any of this up with him. I don't really think that far ahead anymore.
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That's awesome that you and your mom are working things out. I hope she will continue to be okay. I'm sure she will be well taken care of by you. You are a very caring person. I'm really sorry about your cat. Yesterday was the one year date for me losing my cat, who was like a soul mate for me. So I understand, it was a very hard day. Also very sorry to hear about your friend, that is very sad for you and the friend.
You are having a lot going on but sometimes it happens that way. You need to break off little chunks of all this and work on each one separately instead of everything at once. That would be overwhelming for anyone. You know the old saying when it rains it pours? Well there you go. But from what you have just written you can see that they are all separate issues that need to be dealt with that way. You can do this, I have no doubt. Slow down, take a deep breath and look at this list and see which one you can work on right now. What do you think will happen if you discuss with your T how you have felt and what you are dealing with? He may have some ideas on working on it.
Don't worry about offending us, we understand what you are going through and I think we all know that you do care about us as well.
It's a new day. Try to start it out not being so stressed out. Listen to some soothing music.