I am sorry you feel embarrassed by this.
You and your husband are trying to take care of your family. Congrats for wanting to care for your children/family.
Some illnesses bring limitations. Some limitations are more temporary, while others are more permanent. Either way, we have to do whatever we can to survive as best we can.
Children/family are priorities; I am glad to hear you both make family a priority. You will figure out what's best as you move along your path.

WC