Don't have insurance to see therapist. The free counseling clinic is not going to help me. I woke up this morning in such a sad state, I couldn't bring myself to go to church. Being sad and possibly seeing a member there who uses me for money, I was afraid I might go off on them. Sad how people treat you. I even posted on Facebook about having a Borderline Personality Disorder and though I was honest, some of my 'friends' no longer want to be around me. It's sad, but at least I know they were never my friends. Hopefully I feel better in the morning. Being a 48 single man and not hardly ever getting a hug from a woman really hurts. Just to have one hold me and allow myself to cry on her shoulders would help. Godwilling I'll feel differently tommorrow