Thank you Wild Coyote for your reply

A few “reasons” have been given including “you’re not a priority as you’re married”

I doubt if n.h.s. Therapy would help me anyway, a therapist I paid for said “some people are beyond help” . No idea what he meant.

It’s “nice” to be told how “worthless” I am. I’m starting to really think they were “right all along” The “System” over here “has to prioritise” ... I don’t blame them for not wanting to help me. Just sometimes it hurts

If I had cubs they may have helped me. But I doubt if I would have felt helped
by them, I’ll never know now

I don’t turn up at doctors surgeries in “crisis” ... I avoid them whenever possible

Maybe if I can ... I don’t know ...I could try a private therapist. I gave up on doctors really quite a while ago