Reading your posts about your now ex boyfriend reminds me a lot of a relationship I had for 3 years - I finally broke it off when I had had enough of his anger, his drinking, and not having a job (and relying on me to take care of him). It was difficult to break it off but it was for the best, and I imagine that is how it will be for you as well. Now I am in a relationship with someone who never takes out their anger on me, doesn't drink, and doesn't rely on me financially. It is so much healthier and so much better. I hope you find that special someone someday, somebody who appreciates you and treats you well.