I was at Dance Divine (a freestyle dance) today. I was dancing with sadness that my ex is giving me the message that I am not dependable for my kids in any way. Then I opened my arms and tried to breath. If I let the world in, then my sadness is just a part of me, the whole world is out there, the whole rest of me is in me. I need to stop staring at my belly button and live more, find friends, do fun stuff, challenge myself, build something.