My alternate universe vacation as a very rich person with an oceanfront mansion casually eating lobster and taking the yacht out for some daily morning fishing has come to an end. Back to my trainwreck life.

I am still fuming over the "unengaged" comment. I was keeping a mental eye out for myself during this weekend's concerts, genuinely curious if I was just phoning it in after all. Genuine verdict: no. I am actively shaping and planning every single note. So I've worked on my physical technique enough to be relaxed and balanced thus no need to flail around like a moron with my eyeballs bugging out when I play? Not breaking a sweat or looking concerned, because I already know my part? **** you.