Hi Bluesguy....how are you doing today?.....I have returned to reread your thread because I found you mind fascinating and I related to alot of what you feel and how you view life. I think I have made some progress in altering my mental states...but many many days, I'm back to square one...but I have even managed to deal with such days by knowing that better days do come. I hope you can make some progress with your depression...but in the mean time, know that we are here for you.