I realize they don't come in polar opposites, but I can't figure out a way to seek anything but the positive pole of both situations. I just can't figure out where I want to be or how the heck I'm going to be happy. The only ways I can figure out to make that happen are things that are impossible.

As for the girl, she's been inaccessible the entire time I've known her, she's one of those... but that's not why I want her. I long to be with her because she's amazing, she just happens to be inaccessible. I'm not one of those guys who wants what he can't have just because he can't have it, though it does frustrate me.

Rosario, I'm up from my worst today, so I guess I can be thankful for that. Are you doing alright? I'm glad to hear that things may be getting better for you. As I'm sure you already know, I'm here for you and you can PM me or talk here anytime if you're in need. You've been a great help to me so far.