Yes, the tidying helped. That was Friday. It was a pretty good day. I made fish for dinner. Later, I even baked cookies.

Then Saturday I got upset over nothing. Then I fell into Hell. Saturday and Sunday were beyond awful. And I acted bad. Then I couldn't forgive myself for being a jerk.

That's the worse part - feeling ashamed and hating myself. I can't express how bad this has been. I was wanting to exterminate myself.

Not as bad this morning.