Okay, now, I refuse to believe this is my fault for engaging in conversation with guys through a dating app, but how has it happened that every guy who messages me is SUCH a perv? (DISCLAIMER: I know not all men are pervs, this is about the men who are messaging me.)

This morning I started chatting with a very attractive and, what I thought, was a nice guy. It turns out he works in the adult film industry as an actor. I kept talking to him though because that wasn't a deal breaker for me. I'm not very conservative or religious, and I'm very open-minded about sex.

But I'm very curious about how the whole filming process works for something like that, so I'm asking him questions, and yes, they are about sex but it's his job! So it was not like we were sexting, this was more like logistics of how it all works.

So of course, he sends me a **** pic. Yeah, that just seems to be par for the course now. And I'm not really all that surprised or even offended since he does this for a living, you know? But what bothers me is that a little while later he asks for a pic of me (he's seen my pics on the dating web site), and I ask him of what specifically, to which he clarifies exactly what he wants. You can guess.

I say no. I don't do that. I have no problem with a casual hook up, but I don't send pics over the internet. Nope. Won't do it. So his response is that if I don't send one then to not text him again. So I said goodbye.

I feel degraded and rejected. Why is it so bad to have some self respect and, geez, I can't believe I'm saying this, but a little modesty? I mean, not super modesty, but a little modesty? Just enough to keep your genitalia off someone else's phone? Seriously?

I routinely get degrading messages from men saying what they'd like to do to me (just imagine whatever you want, I've heard it all), and I do absolutely nothing to warrant that kind of greeting. I mean, yes, I want to be desired and wanted, but I also want to be respected and treated like a person and not a play thing. Why do these men not get that? And where are there mothers that taught them it was okay to behave this way?!

On the other hand, the guy I have been seeing, who I met online, texted me back this morning after his trip out of town, and his first response back to me after I asked how his trip was was "it was okay, but never mind that, did you hear from the University yet?!" Which was really sweet.

I'm really torn because it's been a long time since I've had sex and I'm really horny, frankly, but at the same time, I'm not going to do anything I'm not comfortable with. Like seriously, showing a little interest in me and being respectful of who I am turns me on way more than making sexual innuendos and double entendres or sending me a **** pic. Seriously, there is nothing that turns me OFF more than a **** pic. I mean, what happened to foreplay? Is the **** pic the new foreplay? I certainly hope not. I might give up altogether if that's the case.

Lord, give me strength.