In our last session (last ever? sorry-- I'm just pissed at him), T told me that this week I should draw my feelings. He mentioned something about giving all parts of myself a chance to express the feelings on paper.

I decided that I would go out and buy colored pencils for the current me and the 18 year-old me to draw with, and that I would buy a pack of crayons for the little girl to draw with.

It actually felt so good to buy something for this part of me instead of constantly hating her. For once, I was accepting her existence and giving her a way to express herself that was suitable for her.

Since then, I have done two pictures-- one with the colored pencils and one with the crayons yesterday when I was feeling really 'little.'

It has been an amazing experience to express myself through art. If I wasn't mad at T, I would say I can't wait to bring my pictures in so we can talk about them. Either way, I can't wait to make more.