Before I answer this question- I maybe think things are changing is because you were able to go in the next time after the horrible session and really tell her how it made you feel? that hopefully she is understanding how easily you can spin out, that she is trying something different?

that being said, i feel like shes always offered phone calls, and has mentioned her cell before, right?

i understand how scary it all feels, especially reading all the horror stories around here.

i have been seeing my current T for a little over 2 years. I email her when I need to (sometimes 1-2 times a week, sometimes fewer), ask for phone calls when i am doing particularly bad, and text when i feel like she needs to see it quicker (usually asking to call).

There definitely has been and probably always will be a little anxiety over it. She has reassured me she that i am not bothering her, and has always been there when really needed. she doesnt write back to every email, which i am okay with. she said if i ever contacted her too much, she wouldnt be angry, but we might have a conversation about needing a higher level of care. incidentally, we HAVE had that conversation, but not because of outside contact, but bc of depressive episodes.

all of this is to say that it has been good. much of the time, i find it easier to write what i am thinking rather than speak it. she understands and is fine w me emailing her my thoughts. it isnt always bad