Well I have no interest in sex with mine even if it was legal or I guess it is after 2 yrs of ending or something, but with the friendship aspect, it kills me sometimes. I feel we have a real connection, he shares a lot about himself, I do believe he really cares about me and I him, we have tons in common etc, I know we could/would be good friends, so the whole rules thing on that is awful to deal with. I know when therapy ends its ok, not advised but not wrong, however I don't see him agreeing to anything beyond a occasional stop in or email/call etc

I deal with it by internal hell, lol. We barely discuss it, because its too painful. I feel insane telling people about it so I dont. its literally the worst part of therapy for me, because its the most powerful feelings I had ever about anyone and I feel helpless

As far as touch, thankfully mine does. I was deprived of it growing up... and grew to hate the idea of touch. We hug every session now and even will do comfort hand holds if need be. If I didn't have a T who did that, after this long, I may of quit honestly.... although it does fuel my feelings about him