I drank every weekend for about a year and a half. This past summer I was drinking three to four times a week because I wasn’t working. I continued this up until August 12. On August 13 I started depakote, which can mess with your liver, so I quit drinking. I was sorta stable, so I didn’t really miss it.

Well, at the beginning of October I started running again on the weekend. I KNOW it’s bad for me because of the depakote but I just keep doing it. I just get soooo bored or so stressed or so hypo that I want to drink. And I seem to have no control over it if it’s a Friday or Saturday. And I can’t just have one drink. Once I start I don’t stop until my alcohol is gone or I’m drunk enough to see double. Like you, ladyshadow, I generally just fall asleep. On New Years I drank two bottles of wine in two hours and passed out at 11.

I don’t want to wreck my liver. But I just get so bored by myself on the weekend, or my sister in law is here and she’s drinking and I want to have fun. I just talk myself into it.

I fortunately (or unfortunately) don’t get hangovers unless I drink liquor, so I stick to wine or spiked seltzer.

I know I can’t go on like this on depakote. I’m hoping I’ll control myself this weekend.