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It is so important you try to feel good in private... after all, even when with someone else, your self-image is a private part of you.. it's just easier to practice and create when you're alone.

I've struggled with it for years, that's something I wish someone had told me way back when. It's important to remember everyone has faults... yours are no worse than anyone elses, and probably you have many great qualities if you allow yourself to become personal with them.
It really helped me to think that maybe I don't have the looks or personality I wish I had, I might never make it as a pop icon, but what I had was good enough to be friends with, with the right people.... I'm sure the same is true for you.. Do be careful about your friends, I know being lonely can lead to bad choices, please don't let it happen to you... the best friends are those who make you feel good about you... not just BS supporting you, but prop you up, tell you the good things about who you are, truthful things, not crap that is sometimes just a way of getting what they want or need... These people are special and rare, but so much better in the long run than running with people who can't give love and kindness without strings.... you deserve the best.. let yourself have it... the best is not the most expensive, it's what makes you feel the most valuable.. hang in there, it takes time... I know you want it now, at least that's how I am, but please choose to be good to you.......... Heathers post "choices" in depression is a very good way to start.. you are more than welcome to join us whenever you like... so many here love to help, and I think you have much you could offer too... it's a great way to get a little confidence going.... take care

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but rising every time we fall." Confucius