I think i'm experiencing an even further emotional decline even though I've been off the SSRI for so long, and even the mood stabilizers. I was on lamictal for over two years, the entire time writing my book. I had to force myself to cognitively listen to music for inspiration and catch verses that inspired me. I haven't found a song that really inspired me, even cognitively, since... looking back on my facebook, February 14th. It was a retro soul song. I haven't added very much music to my collection either. Two years ago, I could still hardly feel music, but I was at least inspired from time to time listening to the lyrics.

Edit: When I first started writing I had a ton of motivation, and now it's just whither away. Did I just obtain bad habits?