Depression has hit hard the last week or so. I want to do nothing but sleep. I've been out of groceries for days and too tired to go to the store. I've only been getting dressed when I have to leave the house. And yet I'm also feeling the edge of mixed crap starting too.

My pdoc increased my AD, which means I'm at the max dose for it. I'm also supposed to start using my SAD lamp. I also have permission to increase my AP if I get mixed since that seems like a real risk and reaching my pdoc twice in a short time is hard.

I just want to go to sleep but if I do now I'll wake up and not be able to get back to sleep in the middle of the night.

Hate this.