I hope you are feeling better rainbow! I know what you mean about wanting to know them better and to actually mean something to them too. I think we do matter even though we can't be friends with t. Are you socializing outside of therapy? I ask only because I've been trying to branch out to make therapy less all encompassing of my week I'm taking classes at a local artistsan/ makers collective soon and hoping to meet new people. Is there a painters meet up group near you?