I feel really emotional whenever I see another client. Intensely, like a punch in the gut both when she chimed me in immediately after her previous client entered the waiting room, and when she chimed in the next client right after I stepped out of her door.

I think it triggers something about how I'm just a patient on an assembly line despite how attuned, caring she is in session.

"Time is up!" and she can just switch focus, I'm just part of her job, nothing more. I leave after opening a can of crap and spilling my guts, and it's like she experienced zero impact.

ETA:

All that compassion, empathy, her saying she wants to nurture me, that she really cares...a crock of feel good shyt that she serves out like ladling food out to people at the soup kitchen.

And me? A effing beggar lapping it up, hungry for impossible things but getting just enough of a taste to awaken hunger...then ohh time is up....she can't wait for me to GTFO, and she gives that lovey-I-care stuff to everyone so it's not like I'm worthy of care or anything. And yet I still can't quit her. Oh and she supposedly feels hurt when I say she only cares as part of her job...when yep... once the client gets out the door...next!

ETA 2:
Yeah and what does this stupid attachment and intense feelings towards my therapist and other patients say about me? Probably something loaded with shame and proof of me being defective. Since after all, she's only doing her job. And I'm this needy loser.