Thank you all so very much. I didn't eat yesterday at all and was filled with thoughts of him all day and all night. I couldn't help or stop it.... I went to bed at 7 PM. I am depressed.

Yes, he can go mooch off someone else now. Good luck to him. I carried his sorry *** for so long, and he has yet to pay me any of the money he owes me. He just quit yet another job -- at McDonalds. He cannot hold a job down and refuses to find solid work, yet again. So it's been two months since I sent him home on a bus, and he still doesn't have a job except for an unpaid internship. I bet you anything he will quit that, too.

WHY I loved this guy, I do not know. I got so attached, and I think it's because my own situation right now sucks and I am very lonely.

Divine, you are right. He is far less interesting himself! He doesn't even know how to stand on his own two feet. And I DO need to think more of myself. My self-esteem took a blow through this. To tell me that he loved someone else more - well that's just cruel. And I don't know if he said that to hurt me -- which is what he does when he's mad.

I don't know how I am going to get through this day of work. I don't know how I can possibly focus. I had to take yesterday off. I wish I could take off the whole week.

I am a total wreck. :/