I'm having a blank kind of day, and week. i just don't feel like doing anything and don't feel like being aware - like i just want to zone out and check out. this is sometimes why i crave chaos, i think, because reality is boring. shouldn't tempt fate.

saw my psychologist and basically only talked about one thing, because i have a short session. i feel stupid trying to say things because many things i'd like to say amount to "i feel weird". i'm nervous either that he'll think i'm being stupid or that i'm actually crazy.