Oh yes I’ve had several affairs - take some advice from a wise elder and STOP it now! He is using you! Those feelings are infatuation - what I call the “love drug”. It’s exciting and intoxicating. You are all jangly and cranked up. When will I see him again? I can’t stand being apart! I love him and need him desperately! He is my true soulmate! He doesn’t love his wife he loves me! We WILL make this work and be together. Blah, blah, blah....

Affairs bring nothing but heartache and the anxiety you’re describing. Engaging in this behavior caused me great emotional upheaval. Big heavy secrets I’ll carry around with me the rest of my life. Please save yourself now!!!