Not feeling the love lately. I have been working hard on CBT to deal with normal ups and downs. I have been visiting pdoc often and gotten a med regime that has me in a better place than I have been in years. I quit drinking and abusing prescription meds, 4 months tomorrow. I am getting serious about my health; lost about 30# and have been riding my bike and taking long walks. I have been doing really well at work and helped get us on track for a possible deal that will extend my job for several years. No one cares about any of this except my wife asks about the prospects for my job out of concern for the change in income we would be faced with if my job isn't funded. Everyone at my house knows I quit drinking/using but no one could tell you when. The only place I will be congratulated tomorrow is over in the addiction forum. They know I am losing weight but never ask about how I am doing it or how much I have lost. I think that is largely because my wife needs to lose quite a bit also but isn't really trying to. She's an overweight smoking heart patient.
I don't have any close friends that I speak to or see often. I see my family maybe twice a year and not really all that close with any family member.

A lot of this is my fault. I am a loner that somehow found a wife and I think she has buyer's remorse now for all that I put her through with my mood swings and closet drinking. Kids care about me but have their own lives and issues (17 and older).