I have affectively dependent on my lover.. now I learned to let go. I have a healthier relationship. But now, I guess I fall into the other side... Solitude... I feel like I am still alone.. I feel like no one anymore can fill the void... not my family, not him... I guess I've grown up and realized that we are all alone at the end... my bf is quite distant.. he has this type of character and he needs space and he needs time for his career. I guess I am still a little clingy inside.. even if I try to control it. It's not his fault I guess anybody in our busy world would react as he did. And I need to focus on my stuff as well. I don't know if it's normal... when he is not around.. when no one is around, I feel so lonely and it lasts the whole day sometimes... I don't know if I am dysfunctional or just bored in my job or maybe loving too much or still attached too much.. sometimes it's really hard... but grown ups are supposed to be tough... anyway.. solitude kills me.