(((Hugs to you WildFlowerChild))))

I totally can relate. Liquor usually gives me the worst hangovers and I generally just drink because I want to have fun. It's sooo hard to kick the habit of it.

I have been good the past couple of days. I managed to get out of the house and not have a drink which is really rare for me. Another thing I picked up? Smoking. UGH! If it's not one bad habit it's another. I am not quite that addicted yet, but after a large meal I just want a cigarette so badly, or when I have a couple of drinks. the two seem to go together so perfectly.

I don't know. It's been another manic day and I just want to sleep and I can't. It's almost like I NEED the alcohol to knock me out of my mania.

The scariest part? I was sober for 10 months before I ended up in the hospital. That's the scariest thing ever because I talk myself into saying I need the drink to battle the mania when the meds don't help.

IT just feels like a vicious cycle.