I first got this idea in elementary school. A classmate looked up to a girl in middle school and cited everything good about her. That's how I knew about admiring anyone. However, I didn't feel it until I graduated high school. I was making my way in the real world and needed a role model who is older and more experienced. I had plenty of friends, even though they all turned out to be fair weather friends. However, I never had anyone I could look up to.