thank you both.... you're right. I know you are. In time, I will definitely be saying WTF???? I just HATE that I have to go through the pain until then. ARGH!!!!! And thank you, Bjornen, for saying I'm strong and resilient. I don't feel it right now, but I can be when I need to be. Thank you for having my back. ((((((hugs))))))

I just want to scream right now though. I want to send him this email sooooo badly and just SLAM HIM for all it's worth. But I must be patient.