Ive been down for a solid month now. I don't know if I should just ride it out or call my pdoc and have him try to treat me. I'm afraid if I wait too long I'm going to get bad enough to have to go to the hospital again. I'm also afraid if I go to the pdoc he's going to add an antidepressant and/or increase my clozapine (I have been paranoid and aggitated). The antidepressant will probably send me manic or mixed, and the increase in clozapine will probably make me lose my job because I slept for 18 hours straight through my alarm.

My past depressions just went away by itself after a few weeks, but that was years ago when I was rapid cycling and I spent a few weeks depressed, a few weeks manic, a few weeks depressed, and repeat. I'm not rapid cycling anymore and I feel like this episode will persist on and on until I do something about it.